Just me again, God

So, do I miss this little corner of the world or not?

Depression, Recession and Clearly not where I want to be.

Things I want for myself:

Education - hmm I am torn on this I have degrees (some say too many) but I still don't feel educated. I still feel unfulfilled.

Profession - I think Debi Roy did me a favor when she pulled me out of data programming into auditing technology. It hurts me to think she doesn't know me now. It really hurts and I don't know why. I understand ABSmith having me on her dislike list because I didn't stand up. But there was lots of mistrust at Hertz and she was one more person that doesn't really want to know the whole story.

I liked working for the State but I hated to teach the unteachable. All in all it was a good experience. I learned so much more about operational and finical auditing than I would have ever learned at Hertz.

Working that close with a Board of Directors and the Audit committee was a learning experience. I found it funny that how some of the BOD didn't not understand they were on the hook if anything turned south on them. It was scary for me, and scary for them. I wish I could have done more for them on the technology front but I trust the new executive director and am sure he is doing the right thing for the retirees and future retirees.

So were do I go from here?

I am 12 hours away from sitting for the CPA exam. But do I really want to be a CPA? I don't think so. I would like to be a CIA but I need more practical experience with finical reports I think. But I will keep plugging along.

Goals Real GOALS

Write the great American novel? maybe not
Finish out my Accounting degree? maybe Sit for the exam? I should

What will make me a better human?
Being Honest to bad people don't want Honest people to work for them.

I hate the conflicts in my life but as I see it I am the person that created all of them so I need to work out what to do next.

Short term goals

Read ISACA and IIA rules again.
Balance my work - life goals
Make a man out of boy.

Make me a real girl instead of a puppet.

Wow that sounded depressing. Maybe I should try this again later. Good IDEA

Brand NEW Life

So I have a brand new job! WOW I didn't see that happen. I thought I was happy (sorta) where I was. Then bang I am out there and this opportunity presents itself and I am really happy I left the old Employer.

My family is happier. My life doesn't seemed to slowed down since and I always though it would.

I have fallen behind on so many things it tickles me. So I will try to do better with my blog and other things but we will see how it goes.

Career horoscope for 2008

I found this today @ http://itknowledgeexchange.techtarget.com/overheard/career-horoscope-taurus-2008/


I thought it was funny so I though I would share. Margaret Rouse always makes me happy.


Posted by: Margaret Rouse
Technology, horoscopes Taurus, the bull
Your 2008 keyword is SOA

Taurus, your astrological position at work this year is that of the systems architect. Your skills are in high demand, for you belong to a small group of people who are able to see the system as a whole. In 2008, you will be called upon once again to do your juggling act while helping others fight fires.

Last year may have left you exhausted and cynical. You were no doubt asked to focus your attention on tasks you didn’t sign up for. You may have been frustrated dealing with bottlenecks you had no control over. Perhaps you even began looking for another job.

This year you begin to realize that even though you can’t prevent the bottlenecks, you do have the power to change how much importance you place on them. If the system is functioning at an acceptable level, do you really need to beat yourself up over the small stuff? Your pride in your work makes you want to do everything perfectly. You tend to think in black and white. This year, learn to appreciate the shades of grey.

Your success in 2008 will depend on your ability to redirect your attention and trust in your own abilities. You have the power, don’t give it away. You don’t need to burn bridges, you simply need to be more open to letting others shoulder responsibilities. Think about outsourcing non-critical tasks. Look at third-party solutions with an open mind. Take time to look at what’s going on in the clouds. You really don’t have to do everything all by yourself.

2008 will be a good year for you to go after that advanced degree or certification. Or perhaps you will have the opportunity to do a workshop or conference session. When opportunities of this kind present themselves, jump on them. Channel your creativity into ideas that provide service to others. As you focus more on communicating your vision, you’ll reap rich rewards, both financial and spiritual. Your struggles in 2007 helped you develop a unique skill set that others need. Don’t discount how important this is.

Your keyword this year is service-oriented architecture. In 2008, you will thrive by helping others on your own terms. Be proactive about offering your help. You’ll find it extremely satisfying — and it will help put all the annoying small stuff in perspective.

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End of Rouse's file

Ok the saddest part is I believe this "READING" compare to all the others. Spooky

Year Long Plan

I got this from a friend (Fab). I thought wow that is a great lesson to learn then I thought to myself I should so do this. So all year long, I am going to try to work up an entry all 50 lessons to see I am getting it in my own little world.

Here is the original email.

I really needed to read some of these today. Hope some help make your day great too.


For over 7 years, Regina Brett was a columnist at The Beacon Journal in Akron , Ohio . During that time, she was diagnosed and successfully treated for breast cancer. Regina is now a columnist for The Plain Dealer in Cleveland , Ohio . Her column runs on Sunday, Wednesday and Friday.

Lessons in Life By Regina Brett

To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolls over to 50 this week, so here's an update:




1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument.
Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone.
It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God.
He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past
so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others'.
You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret,
you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye.
But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties.
Get busy living, or get busy dying.

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood.
But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you
love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets,
wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion.
Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now.
Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words:
"In five years, will this matter?"

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone, everything.

29. What other people think of you is
none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything.
Give time, time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick.
Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is,
not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.
Make it memorable.

38. Read the Psalms.
They cover every human emotion.

39. Get outside every day.
Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and
saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Don't audit life.
Show up and make the most of it now.

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful,
beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

44. Envy is a waste of time.
You already have all you need.

45. The best is yet to come.

46. No matter how you feel, get up,
dress up and show up.

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

48. If you don't ask, you don't get.

49. Yield.

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

"May the Lord's face radiate with joy because of you"

Numbers 6:24

Brand New Year

Well it's been a very good New Year!.

Work related - I have done my first year as a CISA (www.isaca.com) still trying to obtain my CIA (theiia.org) rating. Trying very hard to learn to work with others.

I am still scared that my company is going to LAY EVERYONE off. But if they do... They do and I will pick up what I can and go on.

I am working on how to help the field auditors and learning more about internal controls. My company is going thru all these policy changes and I wonder how long it will take. It will be nice to have policy that doesn't conflict with itself.

Family related -

I have two more members of my family. Carrie and Bella (I will add photos when I figure out how to do so on blogger) they are adjusting well to family life and I am getting use to two more personalities in the house.

T seems ready to do art again, I feel that is a real good sign.

LT, A, F and J are all going back to school soon and that is a good thing before someone ends up grounded.

I didn't get to see my grandparents this holiday season and I feel like a heel because of it. I talked to or saw everyone else I love except for cousins and sorry to say I am closer to my co-workers than my cousins. (maybe I should work on that)

Goals related
I would like to like me again. I know it sounds like a funny goal but it is what I think needs to happen so I can be happy again.

Financial related
Yeah my finances suck again but with Panda owing almost $6000 dollars and my personal debt. I can't do what I want. Oh don't worry the bills are getting paid but I am trying to save money to pay off the debt. I keep feeling that I have to say NO all the time to fun things so I can save.

Hobbies related

Let me see my hobbies are BSA, Kiragami and TV shows :) (Lost is still #1 on my list) Reading, self improvement, home improvement and Music. (I wonder if Sleeping can be considered a hobby?)


BSA well I do the best I can and try to do better

Kiragami (like oragami (the folding of paper) Kira is the cutting and tearing of paper artfully) is my yoga it's should be relaxing.

TV well every one needs a guilty pleasure.

1. Put 400 bricks in a closed room.
2. Put your new employees in the room and close the door.
3. Leave them alone and come back after 6 hours.
4. Then analyze the situation:

a. If they are counting the bricks, put them in the Accounting Department.
b. If they are recounting them, put them in Auditing.
c. If they have messed up the whole place with the bricks, put them in Engineering.
d. If they are arranging the bricks in some strange order, put them in Planning.
e. If they are throwing the bricks at each other, put them in Operations.
f. If they are sleeping, put them in Security.
g. If they have broken the bricks into pieces, put them in Information Technology.
h. If they are sitting idle, put them in Human Resources.
i. If they say they have tried different combinations, they are looking for more, yet not a brick has been moved, put them in Sales.
j. If they have already left for the day, put them in Marketing.
k. If they are staring out of the window, put them in Strategic Planning.
l. If they are talking to each other, and not a single brick has been moved, congratulate them and put them in Senior Management.

Totally stolen off of another humor website that I lost track of the address or I would have gladly linked it here.

Locked out / Locked down

Yeah! after losing my mind in lost. I finally figured out how to get back on. YEAH